Committed.

Tonight I committed. To doing something I've already been doing, but more in-depth, more responsibility. To something that will likely take up a pretty decent amount of my already busy schedule. To something that will make me think back to my degree in ministry in ways I haven't had to in a while. To something that will allow me to be part of an old team in a very new way. To something that will hopefully challenge and inspire me, and hopefully also challenge and inspire some young lives.

A part of me is afraid I won't have any free time, any life; that I'll be burned out and exhausted and hate people; that I won't have what it takes to get the job done after all. I think these fears are mostly excuses I'm making to myself to keep from doing the harder thing, the more stretching thing. Because, when I really think about it, the things this opportunity has to offer are just the things I've been longing for. So tonight I committed. And I'm excited to see what God has in store as I step out on this new-ish venture, trusting greatly in his provision.